You know how sometimes things can take a serious turn in a person’s life? Sometimes those things just aught not be posted on a public board – and so I don’t, but this “thing” has been going on in my family that’s caused me to turn inward for a while.
In the broadest possible terms, the result has been that my son has moved out to live with his dad. It’s been a turbulent and very emotional time, and so I have been quiet here on the net. I feel though, that rather than trying to go on as if nothing has happened, I should let you all know that I am not on top of things like I normally am.
I am still here, just distracted. So please give me a little grace in the next few weeks while things settle into a normal.
Sometimes it's nice to see life from someone else's point of view. I am a mother, writer and amateur photographer. This is what the view looks like from where I am standing.
Monday, May 16, 2005
Monday, May 02, 2005
Doctor Update
I never told those who might be interested what happened with the doctor. I just got busy with other stuff and sidetracked.
I did go to the doctor and after hearing what I'd been going through, he took a listen to my ticker and told me that my heart was fine. Apparently, when you have a sensitive Autonomic Nervous System, your heart rate speeds up when you breathe in and slows down when you breathe out. Mine is very sensitive. When I asked what the ANS is, he told me that it's the part of your system that governs the workings of your internal organs, the reactions that your skin goes through when you are scared, touched, embarrassed etc. It also is what controls the beats and regulations of your heart. The ANS is what they measure when you take a lie detector test.
All of this clicked for me. I have always been hyperactive reactive and would startle easily (many jokes in my life on watching me jump) and when upset, my whole chest and neck would radiate red (I realize everyone’s does this to one degree or another, but mine was on the extreme end). I haven't been in physical danger since the abuse stopped. I haven't had the "crisis management" style of living that lead to the skin turning colors lately.... but now it's manifested in this stage of my happily-married and steady life into heart palpitations.
What did the doctor do? He told me to deal with my stress. I am so glad he didn't try to put me on meds, or send me to get a bazillion more tests done! But I am learning a valuable lesson about dealing head on with what's bothering me and in finding effective ways of coping with what stress does to my body.
I have billing to get out today, so I can’t spend as much time lingering on an update as I would like. I will be back though. Thank you to all of you who read my blog and said a prayer or helpful thoughts in my direction.
I will leave you with one cool thing I saw this morning. A robin has found a patch of dead grass near our house (the spot where the concrete steps sat, until the cement patio outside our back door got laid). Well it’s been coming back and forth grabbing hunks of the grass to build it’s nest. It was very cool to point it out to the girls and share a very girly “Aww” moment.
I hope your day is going well, reader. Thank you for taking time to spend some of it with me today.
I did go to the doctor and after hearing what I'd been going through, he took a listen to my ticker and told me that my heart was fine. Apparently, when you have a sensitive Autonomic Nervous System, your heart rate speeds up when you breathe in and slows down when you breathe out. Mine is very sensitive. When I asked what the ANS is, he told me that it's the part of your system that governs the workings of your internal organs, the reactions that your skin goes through when you are scared, touched, embarrassed etc. It also is what controls the beats and regulations of your heart. The ANS is what they measure when you take a lie detector test.
All of this clicked for me. I have always been hyperactive reactive and would startle easily (many jokes in my life on watching me jump) and when upset, my whole chest and neck would radiate red (I realize everyone’s does this to one degree or another, but mine was on the extreme end). I haven't been in physical danger since the abuse stopped. I haven't had the "crisis management" style of living that lead to the skin turning colors lately.... but now it's manifested in this stage of my happily-married and steady life into heart palpitations.
What did the doctor do? He told me to deal with my stress. I am so glad he didn't try to put me on meds, or send me to get a bazillion more tests done! But I am learning a valuable lesson about dealing head on with what's bothering me and in finding effective ways of coping with what stress does to my body.
I have billing to get out today, so I can’t spend as much time lingering on an update as I would like. I will be back though. Thank you to all of you who read my blog and said a prayer or helpful thoughts in my direction.
I will leave you with one cool thing I saw this morning. A robin has found a patch of dead grass near our house (the spot where the concrete steps sat, until the cement patio outside our back door got laid). Well it’s been coming back and forth grabbing hunks of the grass to build it’s nest. It was very cool to point it out to the girls and share a very girly “Aww” moment.
I hope your day is going well, reader. Thank you for taking time to spend some of it with me today.
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